Topic change after the Ethical Reflection tutorial

The logic of the previous project topic that I was chosen is because I studied clothing design major at the undergraduate level, so my first idea was that my project would "change the world" with my clothing design ability.

As Richie said, creativity often occurs when two different fields are linked together, so I wanted to combine clothing with other fields, and because I very cared about my grandfather and he had a fall at the beginning of the year, so my project 5 was mainly about looking at how to change the field of clothing for older people by turning clothing into wearable devices to protect them. Through my research, I found that there are already a lot of people designing wearable devices to protect the elderly, similar to clothes that automatically call an ambulance when they monitor an irregular heartbeat and clothes that pop out airbags to protect bones when they fall. I didn't think I could make anything new.

At that time I happened to read a famous Chinese novel Fang Siqi's First Love Paradise, and I was so disturbed by the author's experience that I turned my attention to how wearables could be used to protect children from sexual assault, and I found that no one had done any research in this area, so I decided to focus on how to protect children from sexual assault through wearable devices area.

Two of my previous tutors had given me feedback, Jasminka says that my project was difficult to carry out because I was having difficulty getting data and testing children, based on this I came up with a solution. I found that many people had expressed their views and recorded their experiences suffering sexual violence in their childhood in the 'Me Too' campaign on social media, and I thought I could survey these adults who had experienced sexual violence as children but had grown up and get their data.

The feedback I got from Cai, she told me that we weren't product design professionals and I didn't need to focus on technology, I agreed with that, but I just wanted to connect with clothing, so I'm now thinking of a better solution, a more eclectic path. I have done a lot of research and have emailed some children's centers and have not received a response so far. As the data is not yet available, my first intervention is to recreate a literary masterpiece. After editing the famous film 'Lolita' from the first-person perspective of Lolita and posting it on social media for audiences to see, I received a lot of feedback that the original story was a horrible story glorified by literature because the original story was told from the male gaze and Lolita was an object without her own emotions in the film, I wanted to In this film, I wanted to convey through the re-editing that the sexual abuse of children is unforgivable, no matter how much literature is glorified.

During the summer holiday, I watched another film, told from the first-person perspective of a pedophile. This film provided me with another new perspective.

The German film "Headache" tells the life and plight of a pedophile from the perspective of a person who has never harmed a child in any way, and this film has the ability to provoke reflection.

If a person's paedophilic tendencies are not determined by him, should he be held responsible for them? Are we able to define a person because of his or her tendencies? With pedophilia, we should be concerned with the action rather than the inclination. If a person with paedophilic tendencies has struggled with this desire all his life, then he is a strong-willed and self-disciplined person. We should even respect him for having endured more temptations than normal and not being able to release them.

After the tutorial with Zuleika, I finally decided not to carry on this topic of sexual abuse of minors. After a month or so of researching this topic, I did find that there were so many things to worry about in the research process that it was difficult to carry out.

I think a lot of this was because I hadn't yet shifted my thinking from my previous design studies, where I had been thinking about how to present the final result - a wearable device that protects children - as a finished product. I haven't done enough to shift my thinking, and as Zuleika says, our project is an action research MA, where we ask our students to make direct changes within communities, and I'm not currently competent enough to touch on such sensitive and dangerous subjects.

Then I wondered if I could change my current topic to how we can properly channel our dark side or negative emotions.

Is it possible to use art to channel the dark side of human nature and negative emotions without letting it control our behavior to hurt others and ourselves?

Like that German film Headache trying to convey that a true sense of morality is not to deny the existence of evil. A true sense of morality is a discussion of how we should confront evil.